Just dyed my hair hehe

CNY coming but where is the feel...sienz...

had a good laugh at myself muahahahahaha and let's move on

Hehe...seems like my approached have been ignored not sure but well gotta move on tho =) A big luff at myself(stupidity) and move on. I guess she should be happy to have many friends around seeing her like that I'm happy too =) ok lets move on...its okay that i failed I lost my self dignity tell myself its ok =) I shall climb up again. Cant do much let time discover everything...la la la...hahaha hahaha... ^-^ ^O^



"To make mistakes is human; to stumble is commonplace; to be able to laugh at yourself is maturity."
William Arthur Ward

"You grow up on the day you have your first real laugh, at yourself."
Ethel Barrymore

A Religious Poem
Good Morning, and God Bless
by John McLeod, © 1989, from "Quiet...flows the love"

Good morning and God bless
On this most wonderful of days
God given, lit by sunlight
Shafting down in golden rays.
The heart sings out its wondrous joy
In choir with birdsong sweet,
And all one's love can employ
This beauteous day to greet.
Oh skies of azure
Blue as any skies could ever be,
How glad I am to meet this day
How well blessed to be me!

I shall live my live to be more....

The more you give,
the more you get
The more you laugh,
the less you fret
The more you do unselfishly,
The more you live abundantly
The more of everything you share,
The more you'll always have to spare
The more you love, the more you'll find
That life is good and friends are kind
For only what we give away,
Enriches us from day to day.

Not easy to be happy though -__-""

I thought I can let go but I can't. Ever since I read her reply I felt sad very sad..I just cant believe we will end up like that. Are we still friend? Can I still call her up to chat like last time we did? I can but will she answer my call? I'm not sure. I dream about her almost every night. Maybe is my fault not treasuring this friendship, maybe is my fault not knowing to be a better person. I have lost my way,

I read through my quotes,

"All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you. The only thing blame does is to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your unhappiness or frustration. You may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming him, but you won't succeed in changing whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy."
Wayne Dyer

"When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you don't blame the lettuce. You look into the reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce.

Yet if we have problems with our friends or our family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will grow well, like lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and arguments. That is my experience. No blame, no reasoning, no argument, just understanding. If you understand, and you show that you understand, you can love, and the situation will change."
Thich Nhat Hanh

I'm willing to say sorry to get back this relationship but I'm really not sure about her. I want to try so much but will I be a looser if she don't accept my apologies...well a friendship worth more than my pride I shall try...

Thanks for your email =)

Don't let someone become a priority
in your life...
When you are just an option for 
them.....'

'Never cry for any relation in life
because for the one whom you cry does
not deserve your tears and the one who
deserves will never let you
cry.........'

'Treat everyone with politeness 
even those who are rude to you,not

Because they are not nice but because
you are nice........'

'Never search your happiness
in others which will make you feel
alone, rather search it in yourself you
will feel happy even if you are left
alone.......'

'Happiness always looks small
when we hold it in our hands

But when we learn to
share it, we realize how big and 
precious it is!'

The book i'm reading now - Torey Hayden's Silent Boy

I bought this book long time ago haha...just want to start open and read. I guess how long will I finished this book eh? Haha will never know...it depends how interesting is the content...plus myself always like to procastinate when read book...yeah its a bad habit i know...will finished this as soon as possible.

Disappointments and how much tears flow….

Yes I admit I did said let’s forget everything and move on =) sincerely have forgotten everything doesn’t want to look back the scars in my heart. I have had enough with the past and I have learnt how to laugh instead of cry recently.

You thought only you’re the one who have hurt? Only you the one who have flow tears? You thought only you the one hide quietly in the room and cry? I've been doing it everyday last time...I don't think you know huh? Coz I never want you to know. 

You said I forced you to say out everything…you read my blog you said you hurt…then when I read your last SMS…you think I’m not hurt? More hurt than you million-million of times…try to think back what you have sent me?  The one you said I’m the one who forced you to said it out. I think you sure still remember very clearly. Your SMS sound much crueler than this. Ever since…I’m just like a glass dropped on the floor…do you know that!! Every time, as long as you said out the things you wanted to, then you’ll feel happy and make that person so damn guilty and hope she can regret huh?…happy now? I guess you are very happy…since you willing to let go

After reading that SMS everything came back into my mind, what have I done that make you so damn angry huh? Have I done something really wrong to you? I have enough begging for forgiveness. Every time you show me faces, I just tell myself is ok…as long as I’m used to it then it will be alright. I have try to explain why and my situation; tell me where I go wrong? I care that’s why I really mind whether you still angry with me or not, I take out my pride ask for your forgiveness and what I got back is just hurting SMS-es. If you are not who you are, why I have to waste my time SMSing you asking how are you and are you still angry with me or not?

To argue with anybody, I sure will lost, but tell you one thing everything I do it for you I do it with sincere heart.  You want to believe or not it will still depend on you. Since this is what I’ve got hrm well I have no time for these anyway….so I borrow your words “You forced me to”…

Anyway I should thank you...I am now a stronger person...not crcying anymore, learnt how to laugh more often and be jovial. More hopes and have been enlightened! 

Life is short, I will never know what will happen next minute so I don't want to waste my time on nonsense things.

Ji dao you jing tian na he bi tang chu ne?

Wo hen xiang dui ta shuo dui bu qi. Chong kai shi wo jiu bu ying kai jie shou ni de yao qiu, shou ni zhuo wo de gan jie jie. Dui bu qi wo sang le ni. Wo bu xiang zai lian lei ni, wo bu xiang zai sang hai ni shuo yi xuan ze tui chu. Jia ru wo zi dao ni shi yi ge rong yi shou sang de ren wo jiu bu hui jie shou ni de yao qiu. Wo yi jing shi yi ge hen chui ruo de nu hai le, wo bu nen bao hu ren he ren...dui bu qi. Wo xi wang ni hui kuai le...you shi xiang kang jie huen ba...ji shao you yi ge ren zai ni shen bian zhao gu ni, bau hu ni...na jiu shi nan ren de ze ren ah....gei ta zi hui ba =) ni hui xin fu de. Take care ba.

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Ren shen zhen de hen you chu

Zai ze ge ren shen li, yu jian le ge zhong ge yang de ren. you hao you huai...shi hao shi huai ye hao, ye yao kan wo men zi ji zhen yang chu kang dai ren jia. Ren ne shen chu lai shi san liang de...yin wei shen bian de yin xiang hai you ya li you shi chai hui zhuo chu ren bu yin kai zhuo de shi. 

chong xiao dao da, wo ma dui wo shuo...shuo wo shi yi ge hen jing de ren, zi yao ba yi wan fang bai zai wo de mian qian, wo jiu hui jing jing de zhuo xia ba ta chi wan. Haha...hai mang tang chi de ma...wo shi yi  ge ze me yang de ren ne? Wo zhen de hen xiang ji dao...Chong yi ge xiao nu shen chen wei le yi ge mu qing...wo jing guo le bu shao de kao yian....ye xue xi le bu shao. Wo de shi xiang chen zhang le hen duo....bu zai shi yi ge dan xiao gui, yi jing shi yi ge hui fa biao xin li de shin sheng de ren. 

Wo hai ji de wo zai college du shu de shi hou...wo dou hen jing...xue zhang men mei tian dou dui wo shuo..."zhen lin ah ni bu ke yi ze yang, hen rong yi bei ren jia chi fu de oh"...na shi wo jue de shui shui bian bian guo mei yi tian jiu hao, mei tian dou ok ah, hai hao ah, bu yong jing la...dou mei shen me yi jian, mei tian dou ren nai mei yi jian shi, kuai kuai ba ta wan diao...na shi zhen de bei ren pa shang tou lai le....hai hao yui ji wei pen you men ken bao hu wo...jia ru mei you de hua wo zhao jiu fang chi le ze ge you ching.

Pen you....you ching...you shi zhen de hen you qu, you shi ne you hen fu za .  Ying wei yi jian xiao xiao de shi ke yi rang dui fang fang lian, na he bi ne? Ying wei tai jie yi er shang hai le bi chi, na you he bi ne? Pen you bu shi hu xiang liao jie, hu xiang bao hu, hu xiang fen xiang de ma? Wo jue de wo zai je ge ren shen li...hai mei you yu dao yi ge zhen zhen liao jie wo de pen you...ta yi wei ta hen liao jie wo ma? yi dian dou mei you...hai hao wo you wo jie, wo mei, wo fu mu, wo de dai kar jeh...hai you wo de zhang fu...ta men dou hen liao jie wo...wo shu yao yi ge liao jie wo de pen you shi ge chuo wu ma? hai you wo ye bu si hang ni nen liao jie wo...ying wei ni zai wo ren shen de di wei yi jing kuai siao si le...chong yi qian wo jiu kai shi ren nai dao xian zai, yi jing kou le....yi ge yong yuen bu gai bian de huai pi chi, yi ge tai jie yi de xing, yong yuen yong bu hao de yen kuan kan dai bie ren, yi ge jue ching de pen you....wo lei le...wo yi jing hen lei hen lei le...wo bu xiang zai lang fei shi jian bau hu ze ge you qing. 

Chong yi qian dao xian zai wo zhuo de yi jing gou duo le...wo ren nai, wo bu he ni jie yi, wo bu he ni fa pi chi, ni zai wo mian qian ma wo ma, wo shiao je dui ni shuo bu yong jing....na shuang shen me? Wo mo mo de zai ni bei hou ren nai ni de huai pi chi, wo shou gou le!!!  Wo ma shuo de dou shi shi si....wo men ying gai yao zhen li wo men de jia, chai bu hui ze me rong yi de bin...ni ma wo ma? pen dang de wo hai dui ni shuo "dui bu chi wo ma chuo le!" wo zhen de shi ge da pen dan!! Wei le ni? xian zai xiang chi lai zhen de zhuo chuo le...na shi jiu ying kai li kai...hai chen dao xian zai? Haha...wo zhen de shi ge da pen dan!! 

Ni shing shing ba!! shi yin gai yao kai bian le...zhang da le...shi xiang yao chen shou dian...shou you guo qu de jiu rang ta guo qu ba...wo bu xiang zai lang fei shi jian dui dai ze yang de pen you...lei le..zhen de hen lei le...bu guang zhen me shuo...wo hai shi xi wang ni nen kai xin, hai you zhao dao yi ge zhen zhen teng ni de dui xiang...yao xin fu bu shi ji shi ran dui fang wei ni shi shen de...you shi ni xu yao shi sheng dian chai hui xin fu de...wo nen gei de ji shi dao ze li...take care ba