Yes I admit I did said let’s forget everything and move on =) sincerely have forgotten everything doesn’t want to look back the scars in my heart. I have had enough with the past and I have learnt how to laugh instead of cry recently.
You thought only you’re the one who have hurt? Only you the one who have flow tears? You thought only you the one hide quietly in the room and cry? I've been doing it everyday last time...I don't think you know huh? Coz I never want you to know.
You said I forced you to say out everything…you read my blog you said you hurt…then when I read your last SMS…you think I’m not hurt? More hurt than you million-million of times…try to think back what you have sent me? The one you said I’m the one who forced you to said it out. I think you sure still remember very clearly. Your SMS sound much crueler than this. Ever since…I’m just like a glass dropped on the floor…do you know that!! Every time, as long as you said out the things you wanted to, then you’ll feel happy and make that person so damn guilty and hope she can regret huh?…happy now? I guess you are very happy…since you willing to let go
After reading that SMS everything came back into my mind, what have I done that make you so damn angry huh? Have I done something really wrong to you? I have enough begging for forgiveness. Every time you show me faces, I just tell myself is ok…as long as I’m used to it then it will be alright. I have try to explain why and my situation; tell me where I go wrong? I care that’s why I really mind whether you still angry with me or not, I take out my pride ask for your forgiveness and what I got back is just hurting SMS-es. If you are not who you are, why I have to waste my time SMSing you asking how are you and are you still angry with me or not?
To argue with anybody, I sure will lost, but tell you one thing everything I do it for you I do it with sincere heart. You want to believe or not it will still depend on you. Since this is what I’ve got hrm well I have no time for these anyway….so I borrow your words “You forced me to”…
Anyway I should thank you...I am now a stronger person...not crcying anymore, learnt how to laugh more often and be jovial. More hopes and have been enlightened!
Life is short, I will never know what will happen next minute so I don't want to waste my time on nonsense things.
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