Not easy to be happy though -__-""

I thought I can let go but I can't. Ever since I read her reply I felt sad very sad..I just cant believe we will end up like that. Are we still friend? Can I still call her up to chat like last time we did? I can but will she answer my call? I'm not sure. I dream about her almost every night. Maybe is my fault not treasuring this friendship, maybe is my fault not knowing to be a better person. I have lost my way,

I read through my quotes,

"All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you. The only thing blame does is to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your unhappiness or frustration. You may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming him, but you won't succeed in changing whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy."
Wayne Dyer

"When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you don't blame the lettuce. You look into the reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce.

Yet if we have problems with our friends or our family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will grow well, like lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and arguments. That is my experience. No blame, no reasoning, no argument, just understanding. If you understand, and you show that you understand, you can love, and the situation will change."
Thich Nhat Hanh

I'm willing to say sorry to get back this relationship but I'm really not sure about her. I want to try so much but will I be a looser if she don't accept my apologies...well a friendship worth more than my pride I shall try...